Mixed Emotions Today

 

Hi, everyone.

It's been a looong time since I've written on this blog. I'm not even sure if anyone has been reading it.

I have mixed emotions today. Let me tell you about them.

The Podcast: 

I am having great difficulty getting the word about my podcast. My listener count is awful and I have recorded 38 episodes. Yep, 38. I have tried all the SEO tricks I have heard of, and nothing has worked. The good news is that those of you who have listened (and participated) find it meaningful.

I have also been ghosted five times by people wanting to be interviewed. They simply don't show up after I have set everything up, spent some time talking with them beforehand, they just ghosted me. It is very rude and upsetting.

I have also had a hard time finding guests for this podcasts. I only have so much myself to say on the topic, and I don't think people just want to hear me talking. I have tried advertising on FB groups, and some of my posts are never approved because they consider it spamming.

I did find one guest from my Instagram, however, she was one of those who ghosted me. TWICE.

Several times I have thought about just ending the podcast. I am currently on a summer hiatus to try to figure out what to do. I did do an interview this morning. As long as people want to tell their story, I will continue to provide a safe space to do so. However, I pride myself on being consistent and I have consistently uploaded an episode every Monday morning since Labor Day, 2023, minus the past two weeks as we were recovering from the tornado.

The Tornado:

I won't talk much about it here because I will probably do an episode about the event, but suffice to say that 6 1/2 days without electricity seemed to bring my wife and I closer together. It made me remember how grateful I should be for what we have and others do not. However, we did have a lot to worry about during that time, and my OCD was virtually non-existent during the day since my mind was occupied with: how are we going to get food? how are we going to get gas? how are we going to keep our sick dog alive? how am i going to keep my business going?

Other Feelings:

Yesterday, I was contacted by two people in distress. One in the morning; one in the evening. For the first time I was the one being called instead of being the caller. It felt good to give back. I tried not to worry about their problems overnight, but it was hard not to.

Transcripts:

I am now adding podcasts transcripts to this page so I have a place to link on Spofify, ITunes, IHeart Radio and YouTube Podcasts. The problem is that the transcripts take up A LOT of room on the blog and I don't like the way it looks. Guess I will have to get over it.

If you are reading this blog, PLEASE PLEASE comment so I know someone is reading this. Thank you.

-b-